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It’s been a long time since I’ve been on here. I guess it’s time to vent a little. I’m depressed. It’s been getting a bit better, but it just stopped getting better. It’s tough and I don’t know what to do. I try to think positive and be optimistic, but everywhere I turn, something gets me down. To end on a good note, it only haunts me at night.





The Human Condition

Lecherous inhuman monsters
Piteous crimes carried out…

The most vicious hateful part of man…

Wretched dregs of society…

Unjust pain they love to inflict,
Breaking their souls, then their minds…

Malevolent and rancid perversions
The outcome is always death…

Sinners heart can’t think or feel…

In this world of mine
They say I don’t belong…

Plea for clemency
You’re wasting time…

Everything around me ignites my rage
I’m burning with animosity…

Everywhere I look another war to wage
Filled with purpose of singularity…

Into the ruins of a civilization
A society ripped to shreds…

No semblance of order
To the world which I abjure…

Will we understand man’s ignorance
Through all the lessons learned…

So quick to claim the credit due
Yet no one takes the blame…

Hypocrites, their rules they don’t apply to you…

Guilty as sin, yet innocence presumed…

They claim to know what’s wrong or right
The mob led to believe so easily
Like a moth to a light…

The ignorant leading the blind…

Trailer trash and human freaks
They grab their minute of fame
And still the puppets watch
And everybody knows the names…

Why does anybody fucking care…




#Exodus  #Exhibit B: The Human Condition  #Burn Hollywood Burn  #Downfall  #Beyond The Pale  #class dismissed (a hate primer)  #the ballad of leonard and charles  #march of the sycophants  


Captain’s Log 10/12/2012

My thoughts tend to contradict themselves and it pisses me off.  One year ago a girl from my school died and I couldn’t care less, but if someone close to me were to die, I would care.  I’m becoming less tolerant of people these days.  I actually think I will become that bad guy in the movie who is actually a misunderstood good guy.  Don’t think I’m a religious freak, but everyone out in the world these days is a sinner and we live in the hands of a lenient God.  Good people in the world get nothing, while these sinners get everything.  They get fame, they get fortune, they get women, they get whatever they want.  But, here I am getting pissed off at myself because I my thoughts aren’t right.  I’m sick and tired of how people act.  They are in relationships with people I care for and they are doing irresponsible things.  They use others just to get through things.  They lie, cheat, and steal to get women who are perceived as beautiful.  They pick on others because they aren’t like them or because they are odd.  I am somewhat guilty of the last one and I hate myself for it, but at least I am one of the people not afraid to admit it.  At least I am one of the people who will try to change their ways.





I hate people.  And I’m not just speaking of the normal losers on the street.  I’m speaking of the people that were supposed to be friends.  I guess not.  I guess I know who my real friends are now.  





I think the bipolar disorder my mom had is now kicking into gear.  This is extremely gay.





Depression is an asshole.  It comes at the worse of times, although anytime is a bad time for depression.  It makes me think horrible things I can’t get out of my head and makes me fear for the worse.  Every Summer it comes back and I don’t know how to get rid of it.  I just wish, really pray to God, that it would just go away for good.  Anything that has ever been wished upon, I wished it away.  It’s not working too well at the moment.  





Annnnnnnnnd I’m finished.  I’m finished with people.  If they don’t care, then I don’t care.  





Say what you want. I like my music.

Fear-A macabre madness
Fiendish carnage with rabid butchery
Pain-sadistically tortured
Rejoicing in their victims slavery
Rape-forced violations
Malicious desecration of the thrall
Slave-depraved exploitation
A sickening anguish for them all

Sick-twisted rituals
Vile defiling of the enslaved
Lie-decimate aspirations abused
At the hands of the deranged
Kill-and slaughter the damned
With gruesome and heinous suffering
Death-merciless killing
With despicable and cruel agony

Sado-sexual violence